A beginning of new month. Third
month of the third semester. In most of the classes if not all we have crossed
2/3 mark. I really cannot imagine, this journey which I began here so many
months back. In less than 5 months we will be placed atleast most of us will
be. We will all become part of different caravans again. I still look back and
wonder at how this road less travelled was travelled somehow. The memory of
that very first day of college is still fresh in my mind. When I took a wrong
bus. Then conductor on the next bus said that there is no stop for Roda Mistry
College. Maybe God almighty was giving me bit too explicit signals. But as
usual I refused to take them and reached class. Which was informed to us would
start 2 hours late. Atleast that was better than previous college where first
classes were postponed by 3 days. But in both the classes I entered with a
confused heart but left with a confident mind. I still remember Aseem Sir
presenting the whole curriculum. Before which I was almost certain that I would
leave the course. Though that feeling came back many times.
I never went to a school or
college which was not under construction mode. JCBs and buses I have always
seen them sharing not just paint scheme but also parking space. I don’t remember
last time I saw a playground without any construction material. I don’t
remember the times I was injured by them while playing. I still remember the
English class where Shakespeare was inside and outside construction workers
signing while driving piles in the pond. These are perhaps the perks of growing
in growing India. But I guess not everyone was so fortunate. My classmates went
to really great school some not to so great ones as well. Most expected a lot,
some very less from institute. Well I, I don’t know I guess I came to do PPG.
So most of my expectations were limited to the classes. I will be less than
truthful if I say there were not met. Sometimes just as I pat myself for taking
up that job at SwitchON. I pat myself for selecting TISS & PPG and thank
Neeraj for helping make this decision. Did sometimes felt I could have done
better had I been in Mumbai but those stories were only told to the birds in
the lake. For me I was not sad with what I was losing but happy with what I was
getting here. And with that feeling I started my last year.
I still remember that
presentation and all that report making. How happily I went to Bangalore to
meet Papu Dada after 2years, and Neeraj after 2years. Then the workshop on Bus
Transit. I was simply on top of the world. Even though I was just in IIHS. I
was even happier when I got to know that the speaker of Perspective was not
coming Wednesday but on Thursday. So I will not miss it. Well that Thursday I
don’t think I will forget for a long time. Those questions which I asked that
day & next two sessions, almost took away, my so many things that I have
not asked a question again till now.
Last year and may be since the
time dad left us. I stopped going into bit too personal relationships and
especially the lessons which the exceptions taught me were enough to convince
me how futile they are. My best friends became the books which I loved so much.
I tried keeping just to them, yet I don’t know why and how people came in here
came to know me in the campus. I was no rockstar rather farthest away from it.
I was definitely not any unsocial guy. Though I have come a long way from a guy
who can make friends standing in ticket queue in a station. I guess we have to
change and lose a lot of us to reach the greater good. As I was telling Ronak
last night, even diamonds to shine has to lose some parts of itself. We are
still humans. I still remember Ayan da saying once that he wishes that I should
stay the way I am till I become what I want to. May be I will eventually break
that promise. But I know, for sure now that I will reach where I want to be.
It was my mistake to have let my
guards down. Let some people make a place in heart and then leave it. May be I
am bit down tonight because so many have left so fast. I could simply not get
time enough to fill it. By the time I could somehow make up that funny feeling
in the stomach next one seemed to be waiting. But I promise tomorrow business
will be as usual. For I have seen my Parents been through even more battering
and heard about my Grandparents, about whose pains and suffering can perhaps
our generation not even dare imagine. If they can bounce back and built a new
future with hard work. Why can’t I? Therefore it is time to get back to the
business. The dissertation, the readings, the classes and the lake there is
still 7 months of it left and it time to be in them. Above all it is time to do
what I came here for “Reimagining Futures”. Last two months have taught me well
that it is not for fainted hearted people.
I dedicate this post which marks my return to blogging again to all my sjourners with whom I spent the last one year and two months. And will spend next 7 months. And specially to two juniours Vaihsali and Rajeev who helped in writting this blog.
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